Guilt


​So many lives ruined

But, yet again, it happened

 

He lived his life

In a way

That made me believe

There was something inside him

 

He needed to kill

 

He lived his life

In a way

That made me believe

Everything was a story

 

Breathe in

Breathe out

 

The lamp is filled

With the midnight oil

And oh, how slowly it burns 

 

The mornings are made

To fight mountains

That stand in your way

 

A smile reveals

Stained teeth

A trophy to treasure

 

A quirk amongst many

 

Breathe in

Breathe out

 

Walls are made

To break away

For bones are made of rubble

Together they belong

 

Happiness surrounds you

For you are the source

And all that is left behind is

Regret

 

I feel the guilt

Course through my veins

Staining my skin a deep green

 

Breathe out.

Melting Sun

Through gutters and

Ditches, deep in the 

Pavement

 

I see the remnants

Of something

Celestial

 

It’s texture feels

Alien to my 

Skin

 

And it expels a shade

Of colour, unseen by my

Eyes

 

The horizon glows

For the day is

Dying

 

And I weep

For I know the sun is

Dead

 

The melting sun

Makes a huge

Mess

 

And I don’t wanna go anywhere

I just wanna 

Watch

 

I wanna wait

Until

All is dusk

Monochrome


Black and white

That’s when I 

See you

 

You’re beautiful to me

 

And I’m flawed
And complex

And oh, so mean

 

What I say could mean

More or less

 

But it never mattered, anyway

I feel like I know you

Like I’ve known you

 

That song you play on repeat

All day

I’ve heard it before

 

Maybe, in another life

 

You lit one

And I lit another

Talk talks that never happened

 

Black and white

That’s how I

See you

 

Your eyes twinkle brighter

Than any star in the night

 

And I dream of you

Choices


​I witnessed a lifetime

Pass by

With the trail of the smoke

 

Plenty more choices

I’ve chosen them all

 

This place that I have 

Reached today

Is a sum of my 

Misplaced choices

 

The sun is far too bright

And the cats don’t meow

As much

 

Everyday passes by

But I don’t feel anything

No affection

 

I work too hard

For things I don’t want

 

And I work too little,

Living a life devoid of surprise

 

I live a life

An incomplete poem

Dreaming of you

 

A cursed life

With witches and stews

Boiling pots and herbs

 

I live a life

Where I fall for a shade

A mirage of yours

 

I regret it

 

But one day

 

The stars align 

 

All my choices

Lead to you

And that’s where I belong

Bay

The rains came
Waves stirred hungrily

Towards the starving bay
The clouds came

Painted the city

Into shades of blue and grey
A beggar came

An impoverished child

Happy to pose for all the pictures in the world
I asked him

“Show me where you live?”

He stretched his hands to the sky

And plopped on the ground
He smiled the biggest grin

I had ever seen
His heart was broken 

Tattered into rubble

Very much like the pavement

Upon which it fell
I didn’t have to ask him

Why.

I knew

All you had to do
Was look into his eyes.

‘The city glitters at night”

He proclaimed
As we both glanced 

Beyond the horizon
Towards our future 

And the rising tide.

Regret

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Words speak

What the soul hides

And the soul hides

Behind my eyes

 

It sees all

Drinking it all in

Feelings left unsaid

Thoughts left un-thought

 

Just a day ago

All I wanted to do was nothing

And all I ever wanted was a slice

Of that beautiful reality

 

But I’m hungry for cake

I crave for a pie

I crave for Pi

I crave for transcendence

 

I have a choice to make

And another tomorrow

Maybe two more, the day

After that

 

But what if I sit here

And wait

Scared out of my wits

Of regret

 

Regret is scary

He’s big, he’s soul crushing

He cripples hope

By just existing

 

This too shall pass

This everlasting night

Shall turn warm,

Bright, with colours

 

And maybe then 

I’ll be happy again

And maybe then

I’ll be warm again